I was considered ''spiritually weak'' by the elders after I came back to the meetings after being out for 2 years. They told me I needed a ''Bible study''. They thought by having a Bible study ( all the dirt I collected by being away from the meetings) would cleanse me and the congregation. They even had elders help me back to ''field service''.
They had me study a new book with a brother who just got out of Bethel. He would never show up. I told the elders that I didn't forget anything and having a Bible study was useless. They elders use the study to see where you're at as to the Society's control.
In 2004, I finally left! I feel the pressure is off my shoulders and don't have the heavy burdens the Society place on everyone's shoulders.